Dear Grandma...

Dear Grandma,

            You are probably wondering why I am writing this letter, under the candle light, three days before Christmas Eve. I felt I had to write this letter, even though you are no longer here, so that I could somehow tell you all that is in my heart. I truly miss you, Grandma, and not only now, but in every single moment of my life.

            You were the rock of our family, and I’m afraid that without that rock, the wall will crumble, because from now on, everything will be different, not only in our lives, but also at events like these, where your role was the most significant… honestly, I cannot imagine our traditional Christmas celebration without you. There will be no one to joke with about Grandpa's new moustache, or there will be no one to help me with our decorations, even though we secretly hate the glittery bows and shiny angels too, but we put them up to make Mama truly angry. I will miss you even more in the moment when the whole family gathers around the Christmas tree, holding candles, singing Hallelujah and praying to God, however, you were the one who always hugged me during this part of our traditions.

I hope the angels are watching over you the way you always watched over me. Somehow, we will learn to live with your absence, but not today, and not tomorrow.

With all my love,

your granddaughter,

who will carry you in her heart forever.