Deep Thoughts

Why are you so ignorant?

what did I do wrong?

is it crazy to be with you

without you knowing it?

maybe I’m crazy..

 or maybe I’m just in love.

but once again I ask myself

is it me?

is it my fault, for your ignorance?

for you to act so dry in my presence?

and I tried so many times to be happy,

happy without you cuz I know that our relationship is just in my head

but why do you have to ruin even the imagination of a better you?

why do you have to ruin a beautiful painting in my eyes?

I don’t think I will ever get the answer to my questions

But I still love.

I still love your coffee-brown eyes

how they melt my heart every time.

still love your fluffy hair

with which I had so many pictures in my story

a story you never knew existed.

in which you were in my arms,

my heart in yours, yours in mine

a story where I play with your hair while our gazes melt together.

I miss how I used to think about you before you ruined it.

all in all, I still love you

my love is still yours

and yours only

no matter how many times you ruin it

and no matter how many times you made my smile disappear.

Varga Antónia   X. H