Everything or nothing (The fear of loving me)

For you it was nothing,

But for me it was everything.

The softness of your lips,

The movement of your mouth on mine,

The dance that we made with your hand on mine.

Your eyes lost in the sea and the sky

And mine lost in the bare brown.

Like the wind dances with the leaves

With the feathers to east

We danced in the center of thousands and yet no-one.

THAT to me was everything,

But for you nothing!

Because you still left like feather the wind,

Chose to settle on the ground.

For the simple fear of where we could go

The story we could make

The love we could give.

To heal each other’s wounds

The scars that others created.

You feared yourself.

The numbing feeling you could feel

When your heart breaks into million pieces

When your soul leaves drained

And your eyes are no longer a masked porter.

The fear stopped you

From loving me

and left you in your own misery.

Czikó Noémi   IX. R